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Life's been so hectic for me as of late. I had my lithrotripsy on the 20th of April and then had emergency surgery last week to remove the stint placed in the left side of my kidney. It was supposed to help the stone pass through much easier, but sadly the stint didn't make much of a difference. Pain has been a constant in my life and I am sick to death of it!
I just want my life back! Is that too much to ask?! The real kicker is my 'supposed' urologist. He is basically washing his hands of me and passing me along to someone else. Apparently asking questions is not allowed...well, according to him at least. We basically had a tiff because I questioned his analysis of the results because I got a tad bit confused when it came to the condition of the remnants of my kidney stone. Speaking of which, the damn stone was 14 mm! Yeah, it was THAT big!
There has been a lot of miscommunication between us because he is never really in his office. He is either in surgery or out of town, so consulting with him about the after effects of my surgery has been a complete nightmare! I've had several issues since the surguries and he isn't making it any eaiser by acting so butt hurt because I questioned his analysis. Look, I'm a patient who is concerned about my health. I am allowed to ask questions. End of story.
Anyways, I am now looking for a new urologist because he won't treat me anymore. So much for our 'plan'. I really thought he was the 'bees knees'. I was finally getting somewhere with this health issue and now that's gone and bit the dust...for now at least. I am honestly not sure if this is more than a kidney stone issue. I'm not sure of anything right now and I fucking hate it! I just want awnsers and I am going to get them. I'm a fighter and will NOT give up!
Anyways, aside from the recent health issue cock-up, I have also been feeling a bit morose because I recently split with a good EP friend. It's not a decision I made lightly, but I finally got to the point where I couldn't take his 'Woe is me' additude anymore. For a long time I thought I could just be there for him because I knew that he just needed someone to listen. I sympathized with him because I know what it's like to feel like that no one cares.
However, I started getting to the point where my sympathy for his plight was turning into annoyance. There are some people out there who complain about everything under the sun, but then won't do anything about their woes for whatever reason. He is sadly one of those people. Granted, he has some issues, but rather than facing them he's more inclined to cowering in his little 'safe zone' instead of being a man and facing them.
I know I sound harsh, but I'd listened to his woes for so long and then got to the point where I was like, "Okay, so what are you going to do about it?" When a person complains so much you get to a point where you expect to see some action. I don't want to go into too much detail because I want to respect his privacy. I will however say that I got to the point where I realized that all he wanted was to complain about how shitty his life is and that he's just a seriously depressed man and is rather cynical towards every aspect of life, which is probably why he's so reluctant to really have one considering it requires a certain amount of effort.
Look, we all have issues in life that we have to face. We may not like it, but it is what it is. I am not beating myself up about cutting him off because I know it was the right thing to do. I honestly don't need people like him in my life because he's not exactly a postive influence. I'm not saying that he's a bad person. He's a sweet heart in some respects, but I can't be there for a person who won't help themselves. I tried and I got burned, which is something I don't want to repeat. God only helps those who help themselves and it's pretty obvious that he doesn't realize that as of yet.
Anyways, I'm done for now.
This made me laugh so much. I like the song, but I like the parody better! :-)
Well I had my lithrotripsy. It went well, but the doc had to put in a stint to help the particles go through to my bladder. I am doing okay for the most part, but the 'Cotton Horse' just road by and now I am going to craving chocolate (vegan of course) and am going to be so moody this week. Anyways, I had to split with an EP friend that I had been friends with since 2012.
In the beginning we hit it off as friends. I felt like we had so much in common because he too has some medical issues, both physical and mental like myself. I felt that even though I don't have what he has, I could still identify with him. Aside from the major age gap, it felt nice to be able to talk to someone who understood what it was like to be bullied, have debilitating health issues and what not. Then, after a while things started to go down hill.
I felt like all he did was complain about how shitty his life is. It was like no matter what I said, he would get upset because I would suggest something that was, according to him, too impossible to even contemplate. I don't want to go into some major details because I want to respect his privacy. I will however generalize. I started to feel that his 'Woe is me' act was all because he just wanted the attention.
Yeesh! I feel so mean for saying that, but I can't ignore what I had seen coming from him. I tried to be supportive and show him that despite his mental health issues, he could still have a good life. He just needs to put himself out there and meet people. I even suggested that he find a support group so he could find some nice girl that he could identify with more. But alas, no matter what I said or suggested he always found some excuse to not do anything about his problems.
I understand that he has mental issues that makes it harder for him to meet people, but at some point you gotta make that step out of your comfort zone or you'll never be happy! I know what it's like to have social anxiety because of bullying. It makes it hard to meet new people, but I personally have made so many strides over these past few years because I refuse to let it beat me. He however just wants wallow in self - pitty. I mean, that's what I saw. Even if he denied it, it was still oh so apparent to the point of transperency.
Whenever I'd try to confront him about he'd say that I was hurting his feelings and didn't understand and blah, blah, blah... The fact is I do, to a certain degree, understand. I've had so many health issues, both physical and mental over the years. At one point I was depressed so bad because of it, but I realized that life was worth living. It's worth finding out what's on the other side of the door, as it were.
I thought that if I was there for him, even if it was only online, then he'd find some comfort from it and realize that he too could change is life. I however recently realized that he really doesn't want to. You can say that you want to change and become a better person, but if you're not going to put in the effort then you really don't want it. That's the secret, you HAVE TO want it badly enough in order to achieve your ultimate goal, whatever that may be.
My goal in life is to be healthy, have a good career and live life to the fullest. I almost died back in Febuary because of the kidney stone that was blocking passage to my left kidney. I was scared shitless because of how close I was to death! Because of that experience I realized that I need to live for the now. In doing so, I had to drop him because he was increasingly becoming a toxic influence in my life. He's not a bad person and in fact has a kind heart, but he honestly needs more help than I can give him. He needs more proffessional help. I also still believe he pines for his ex-girlfriend, which is making it harder for him to move on.
Overall, it wasn't a decision that I took lightly, but I had to do it. I need more positive people in my life right now. Personally, he just had too much baggage. I couldn't take it anymore! What sucks is that I was so emotionally invested because I really cared, but then one comes to a point where you just have to let that person go or else you'd be sucked into that dark hole, which is something I REFUSE to let happen to me. I only hope that he finds what he's looking for. I honestly mean that. I hope that he reads this and realizes that I bear him no ill will and that this blog isn't a tool to make him feel bad. If he doesn't believe me then that's on him, not me.
Anyways, that's it for now
P.S: Got two new PC versions of Assassin's Creed games for $20! Life is good folks!
My life's been so hectic as of late. Summer semester starts next month, which is the least of my worries. However, as it turns out, Financial Aide made a huge blunder by putting me on FA Restriction after Autumn Semester. Apparently I was never supposed to be on it in the first place. My lazy - ass math teacher waited too long to put in my final grade, so FA put me on restriction ba
They never even told me! No phone call or email! So as a result I'm determined to make damn sure that the teacher who put me mess is punished. I don't know how or when it's going to happen, but I'm not going to let this slide! I will go through all LEGAL channels to resolve this issue so she doesn't do it to another student ever again!
Anyways, I went to my urologist for my post - op appointment and found at that I still have a large stone in my left kidney. The one I passed back in Febuary that was too big was just a portion of the stone still lodged in my ruddy kidney. Now I have to have a freaking Lithrotripsy to blast out the ruddy stone. Aside from that my urologist is trying to find out why they're growing so big. I still have a series of tests to do to solve this mystery and when he does I'm going to be put on some special meds and diet to stop the stone from forming. This will hopefully end the array of UTI infections as well.
Other than that I've been 'chillin' like a villan', playing Xbox and enjoying the lovely weather. Well, that's when my neighbor isn't being a total and complete douche bag. I honestly can't say much when it comes to that issue, not now at least. All I can say is that it's out of our hands, which in our case is a good thing ;-)
Anyways, that's pretty much it.
Okay, so I'm like a HUGE fan of Tomb Raider. I have been ever since the first game came out back in the 90's. As I stated in another blog, I just purchased an Xbox one for my B-day. I also was fortunate enough to buy a copy of (2013) Tomb Raider: Definitive Edition for Xbox one and love it! The graphics are incredible! I love how fast paced the story is and how more human-like Lara Croft is.
I'm so oober excited about the next game ' Rise of the Tomb Raider'. The graphics look even more incrediable and life like than the (2013) game. I'm also fortunate enough to have an Alienware and just recently bought the PC game so I can play it on the go. I know it's rather extravagant, but who cares, lol. After what I've been through recently I felt that I deserved to be a little extravagant just this once.
Anyways, here is the trailer for 'Rise of the Tomb Raider'.
Adios fellow EP'rs
~ A.S ~
Still battling rampant UTI's, but it's not as bad as before. I guess this is what happens when someone, even though it was a doctor, goes pokin' around up there...if you know what I mean ;-) Anyways, long story short, the frequent UTI's that I've been getting is still a mystery waiting to be solved. All I can do now is treat this problem the best I can; drink PLENTY of water and sometimes cranberry juice. Exercise often and maintain a healthy diet suited to my body's needs. I may never be in 'perfect' health, but I'll always try my best to maintain a sembelence of good health. That's pretty much all I can strive for at this stage in the game.
Anyways, life has been pretty boring, but I've been offically cleared to go back to the gym so that's a plus. I've been playing a lot of Xbox and have been looking for a part time job that isn't too demanding, but it's slim pickin's folks :-( I don't care what people say, the job market sucks right now! Especially if your a 28 yr old woman like me who has never been able to keep a job due to health reasons, lives with her parents and is obese. The only good thing in my life is my boyfriend, he's my rock!
I'd like to believe that my obesity isn't the reason that I'm not getting hired, but I don't. I've had several job interviews and all of them so far consisted of the employer judging me purely because of my apperance. Maybe to some I seem paranoid, but I know the 'look'. They probably think that I wouldn't be able to hack some jobs because of my weight. That or they're too disgusted and won't even consider hiring me because I am obese.
I've been pretty sore about the rejections for a while now, but now I'm beginning to realize that it's on them. They're passing up a good person and employee that'll work hard. It's their fault that they can't see behind the weight to the wonderful person beneath. I've had weight issues all of my life and for a long time I've been so insecure because of it. I thought that I wasn't worth anything and let people use me as their punching bag because I thought I deserved to be punished for being obese.
I'm way over that now and am okay with who I am as a person. Yes, I want to loose weight and am working hard doing so, despite my health issues, to loose wieght, but I'm not doing it to impress anyone. I'm doing it most importantly for my overall health and for myself. I'm done trying to live up to peoples expectations. In fact, why should any of us bend ourselves backwards just to please anyone? It'll never happen! I've spent most of my life so far doing just that and it's gotten me nowhere!
I've lost all of old friends and am now merely 'aqauintences' with some of them on Facebook. The few friends I do have are all on social media. I'm however grateful that I am no longer friends or even aqauintences with a few of my old friends because they were toxic for me. They made me feel used and inadequate, which never failed to bring down my already low self - esteem. Now I know better and am stronger because I've been friends with them. I now know what a good friend is like because they were the exact opposite of what a good friend should be.
Anyways, enough of my prattling. I'm getting ready to go back to school even though the Summer semester is a few months away. I'm trying to get myself prepared for Uni and for the Computer Science and Engineering program. It's highly competitive, but I can hack it. Sure, it'll be hard, but I've proven beyond measure that I can do anything if I put my mind to it.
What I'm about to say next may seem immature, but WTH. I'm going to have my moment ;-) It's ironic how, for the biggest part of my life so far, I was told that I'm stupid and that I'd never hack it in the world. This coming from some of my so-called 'friends'. Now they're eating their words because as it turns out, none of them have been able to really hack it so far. I know this because I still occassionally talk to some of them and all of them tell me how miserable they are, that they wished they'd of gone to college and what not.
These are the people who prided themselves on being the smartest and couple even said that they'd go to Ivy League. They are also the same people who said on serveral occassions that said I was stupid to my face! And that I'd never make it. I'm sad however because apart of me wants them to succeed because despite my wounded soul, everyone deserves a chance. Anyways, I'm really done now.
So, this is just a quick update to those who care enough to read my blog. I'm still recovering from the surgical procedure, I still have a ruddy UTI because of said surgical procedure and have been stuck at home for what seems like FOREVER because of the crappy weather we've been having. Anyways, I've been a huge fan of Fox's Sleepy Hollow since it's pilot episode and I have to say, season two's finale was pretty epic! I just wish the episodes prior to it weren't so bad that the producers are now contemplating whether there should be a season 3.
Yeah sure, it's just a show, but for a woman like me who is stuck at home, TV is my new best friend. Yeesh, ain't it sad :-( Anyways, I am happy to report that there has been no real family drama as of late, but I'm not going to hold my breath. Nothing lasts forever, but alas, that's life. Anyways, now news about what kind of kidney stone that I had surgically removed just yet. I hate the waiting and now because my urology doctor is going to be out for the next month or so, I have to wait for the results.
So infuriating! It's not like his nurse couldn't tell me over the freaking phone. I wouldn't mind. At least then I'd have some clarity and could start researching online and would know how to deal with preventing such stones to occur again. Anyways, I'm pretty much done prattling on for now.
Apparently I must be crazy because I'm not a fan of Fifty Shades Series. Apparently I was supposed to be impressed by the movie, which I wasn't. It was exactly what I thought it would be, but hey, it's Fifty Shades of Grey! People will praise this crap storm of a movie no matter how bad it is because it's ba
Well, I hate to break it to you Fifty Shades Fans, but Fifty Shades is thee worst example of a BDSM relationship. Just ask any person who dabbles in BDSM and they'll tell you that Fifty Shades is a bunch of shit on a stick. Anyways, I know taking me to see the movie was my sisters idea of my Bday present, but I personally believe it was their idea of torturing me in disguse since they know I despise the series.
The only good thing about Fifty Shades was Jamie Dornan. I like him in The Fall and Once Upon a Time. I think Jamie and Dakota tried to do the best to make this movie good, but there is only so much a person can do. At the end of the day Fifty Shades is a ba
The only good thing about seeing the movie was being able to have some quality time with my sisters. It's the only reason why I tolerated seeing the movie in the first place. I personally am not dissing anyone who is a fan of this series, but please keep in mind that Ana and Christian's relationship isn't something that anyone should strive for. BDSM is okay, but the way Christian treats Ana is degrading.
The whole wretched series is like a slap in the fact to all of the women who have worked hard for equal rights for women. Sure, maybe I'm being a tad bit dramatic, but Christian Grey is not a good person. He is a sadistic and messed up perv who preys on an innocent college student and makes Ana think that she wanted to be in a 'relationshop' with him.
Anyways, it's my B-day on the 16th and we are celebrating it tomorrow. Am I excited? a little, but honesty it just reminds me that I am getting older.
Whoa, so much has happened this this week that I'm still trying to process it all. To briefly recap; I was in the hospital from Sunday night to Tuesday afternoon. I had a rather large kidney stone that was blocking my left kidney, so, I had to have it broken up and sucked out. It was either that or be in the hospital for weeks on end while I waited for it to pass. I chose the surgery because despite how painful it was afterwards, it was worth it.
I now feel that a large weight has been lifted off my shoulders. That cumbersome stone that had been causing me so much drama is now gone! Granted I still have some other stones in both kidney's, but those are passable ones. Anyways, something totally awesome happened to me this week. Because my birthday is next week my parents decided to rent to own an Xbox One with kinect. I'm so uber excited because the console is just plain awesome! That and it was the only one left at the Aarons store in my area.
Now I can play Tomb Raider and Assasins creed Unity and Black flag! Granted, my parents only got me one game, but still, I HAVE AN XBOX!!!!!!!!! Anyways, now I am focusing on getting my self situated for next semester and getting myself ready for Uni. I have decided after long debate to forgo getting my associates in Networking and instead go for my bachelors in either Computer Science and Information Science or Computer Science and Engineering. I am thinking Engineering because that's where all the action's at :-)
Anyways, that's pretty much it. Adios!
I had emergency surgery on Monday because I was passing a kidney stone that was too big to pass by myself. Was I shocked silly? Heck yeah! I went to the E.R on Sunday night in pain, thinking it was just me having a hard time getting over my UTI. The situation however quickly unfolded into something larger than I had anticipated. Anyways, I was admitted into the hospital on Monday where I saw my urologist. He then basically wanted to do the laser surgery ASAP, which I agreed to because I was sick and tired of dealing with this issue.
I'd been living in that ruddy stone's shadow for too long and now it's gone! Now I am recovering at home, but I'm sore as hell! Ugh, this may sound gross, but I never thought peeing would be such a chore!
Anyways, that's pretty much it.
Catch you all on the flip side,
Lately I've been getting a lot of messages from horny members wanting me to see their private parts, sex up their private parts or wanting to sex up mine. Quite frankly, I'm SERIOUSLY ANNOYED by all of the pervs on this social media site. It just makes the rest of us look bad. I've complained about the perverted and sometimes sicks individuals on here, but I got trolled.
It's unbelievable that a person can get trolled for speaking up about sexual harrassment while the ones doing it get put in the victim seat. If anyone who has been reading my blogs you'd know that I was put in a rather precarious situation on here not too long ago. This High School boy said that he wanted me to pee on him while I rubbed his belly or something sick and perverted like that. I can't rememeber.
When I complained I got trolled by people. Told that I was being a close - minded person and what not. Sure, there are all types of people with all types of fetishes, but when a person puts you in a position where you are unwantedly subjected to their desires, it's wrong! Look, all I'm trying to say is that I'm NOT one of those people who like or WANT to relieve your sexual tension. I DON'T want to see you freakin' dangly bits or lady parts!
For peets sake, if you're so desperate, go to a social media site designed for stuff like that. I bet there are plenty of Adult sites out there that facilitate to that sort of thing. Please people, STOP using this public website where children can so easily see that sort of thing. I don't care whether you like or dislkike what I'm saying. The fact is, we are ALL entitled to our opinions.
In conclusion, I'd like to know where the EXPERIENCE project has gone??? All I see now is another place where people can hook up, bully and harrass others. There is only a small margin of people who come on here to do what this site is actually designed for. It's sad, but true. Agree or disagree, that's your choice. All I know is that I'm not going to stop using this site, despite my woes about it.
Anyways, that's pretty much it.
Ugh, I'm so sick of the media over hyping celeb marriages and relationships. It's like, get over it already. No one cares! Is anyone else as annoyed as I am about this?
Why is it that the things or people we care about the most end up hurting us? Sure, "things" can sometimes be rather materialistic, but when it's something that helps you, why then does it hurt you instead? School has been one of the good things in my life for a long time. Yes college is hard work, especially for a Computer Science major, but I've always relish the challenge and the knowledge that I intake.
Now I am denied that right due to the incompetent staff at Financial Aide. How is that fair? Sure, in some ways this unforseen circumstance is a godsend because I can now focus more on my health issues. However, it's the principle of the thing. For the people who handle the financial side of the equation you'd think that they'd be more duitiful, but alas their incompetence knows no bounds.
They didn't send my letter saying that I had been put on Financial Aide Restriction until the 20th of Decemeber and they closed on the night before Christmas Eve. I had little time to get my paperwork together and was not able to turn it in until the day after New Years Day, which was a Friday. Nevertheless, it takes two weeks for my restriction to go through, so I was unable to recieve book money and would've had to wait until the middle of Febuary to buy them and the supplies needed for this semester.
So, I made the right decision ba
Sure, my appeal is going through, but I don't trust those dolts at financial aide. It's like they have monkey's working down there! Anyways, my relationship with my long time boyfriend isn't going to well. I feel as if we are drifting apart, which is understandable. I haven't exactly been thee greatest girlfriend as of late. I have so many emotional issues due to years of constant bullying that I find that it's hard for me to trust people in general. I feel as if I am constantly afraid that the next person's going to hurt me. I wish I could just be apart of the mix instead of looking inside the bowl, as it were.
Anyways, I'm having a hard time with a friend of mine. She's basically the only good 'girl friend' left that I have. She's in love with this man who according to her, doesn't even know she exists. The man she's in love with is engaged to another woman and to top it off, his fiance is pregnant with his child. This was a blow for my friend and lately I've been having a hard time consoleing her. I mean, it would be so much easier if she'd just let this go. There are other fish in the sea, but alas, she's still carrying that torch.
What's worse is that she seems to idolize this man to the point where I am afraid that it is becoming an obsession with her. Thank God she doesn't have an EP account and doesn't know mine because I don't know how she'd react to me blogging about this. Nevertheless, I just had to let this out because I am at my wits end. I've even suggested therapy, but she just waves it off.
She says that he's her soul mate, which is a concept that I am not sure that I believe in, but alas, my friend is determined. She isn't exactly in a position to confront him right now either. I can't go into further details, but all I can say is that this is obviously not going to end well for her. I can only hope that she sees the light and lets this man go.
Anyways, that's pretty much it for now. So much going on, but then again, not enough. I'd rathe be excited for the upcoming semester than wondering how I'm going to fill my days between doctors vists and tests.
Life is continuing to be a hectic mess. I have another UTI infection, but thankfully I was able to get the right Antibiotics to help purge it from my body. I also may not be able to attend this semester due to the fact that I am now on Academic Restriction and am in the process of getting my appeal looked at. I'm angry because no matter how hard I worked this past semester, I was still punished for not being good enough.
How fair is it for a student such as myself to have worked so hard, even when sick and gets punished? I don't want to come off as whiny because I know there are those out there who are worse off than I am, but I'm sick of it! I'm sick and tired of getting short changed because I make one ruddy mistake. I tried my best to rectify it, but they don't give a shit because those in charge have to go by the system set by the school.
This isn't the first time the school has tried to screw me over, but I had been lucky enough and smart enough to ouwit their screwed up system. Not this time however, this time I fear that I will not win this battle, but I'll be damned if I won't win the war. I've had to deal with ALOT of shit over the years and I'm not about to give up now.
Anyways, I'm done ranting. It's just been a rough day.
Well, there's only an hour left before Christmas is offically over. To be honest, I'm glad it is because this year Christmas has been rather exhausting. It would've been better if I weren't so stressed out about finals. Nevertheless, Christmas is about 'family time' and I will admit that I did enjoy the time spent with my family. Of course my sisters, especially my eldest, 'Feather' just had to constatly berate me because I apparently wasn't doing anything right. She even had the audacity to make a snide remark about my make up! I mean, come on! We're adults not children.
Aside from my eldest sister's chidings, I've had a great Christmas. My mom, dad and I went to a Catholic Mass last night and I admit that I felt Gods presence so strongly there. I felt at peace and was facinated by how different their mass was from the methodist mass. Honestly, I liked it, which is saying something. I wouldn't mind going to a Catholic church on a regular basis because I feel that I am able to be who I am without being judged. I know it's weird to say that because I am STILL a Christian Buddhist, but sometimes you find peace in the last place you'd expect to find it. And for me it was that Catholic church.
Anyways, I may not be able to go to school this semester. I am now on academic restriction and I am still getting my paperwork together. I have to have my appeal in before the 7th of January or else I won't get my money. I am so nervous because it takes a while for the appeal to go through. What am I going to do? I feel that school is what keeps me grounded and now there is a good chance that I won't be able to do this semester! Ugh, life is SO unfair. Well, if all else fails I will study for some of my IT certificates and take the tests so I can get a better job. That and I seriously need to get my drivers licsence.
If I can't go to school this semester I will get a job and work on other things, especially working out. I have been rather lax about my exercise and I need to get back on the bandwagon. Anyways, that's pretty much it.
I hope everyone had a blessed Christmas!
Omg, life has been so hectic as of late. I'm so glad that it's winter break right now because I felt like I was going shit-crazy during the last few weeks of Autumn Semester. Speaking of school, I failed math but I passed my Intro to programming class with a B, so my GPA has now dropped to a 2.4. It's not too bad, but it could be better and it will be! I just have to keep postive, watch plenty of ASMR vids and get enough sleep.
Anyways, there has been a lot of tension in the family as of late. My sisters and are I slowly, but surely, finding some common ground. We finally had a big talk which didn't start out about religion, but instead was about our douche bag neighbor upstairs. We went to a nice christian Christmas Concert and during the early morning hours our upstairs neighbor started acting crazy. I won't go into details, but suffice it to say, he has a mental problem and was in fact partaking in illegal drugs that night.
Long story short, I told my parents the next day, which errupted into an argument and that's why my sisters came over to help diffuse the situation. It felt so good to finally voice my opinions about not just the neighbor issue, but also some of our relationship issues. Especially when it pertains to my choice in religion. I told them of my faith and of course they challenged me on my belief in Buddhisim. ( BTW, sorry for the crappy grammar and mispelling.)
They basically said that God/Christ has to be the center of my life or I wouldn't be able to survive this world. I understand that they want me to have a healthy influence where faith is concerned, but to be fair, there are PLENTY of people out there who are don't believe in God or are not sure and they are still able to survive. My sisters had survived a long time as atheists and achived a lot, so this just goes to show how indoctrinated they are in their new religion.
I admit that they are more considerate in some ways, but their intolerance of other religions is just plain sickening. When I asked them about other forms of worship like paganisim for example, they said it's a fake religion. I scoffed because I know there are plenty of pagans out there or Wiccan's, I'm not sure, but they truly believe in their faith just like Buddhists like me. Sure, some Buddhists don't belive in God, but that doesn't mean that we can't. It's all about choice and that's what appeals to me the most.
I like the fact that I have the option of choice, whereas some forms of Christianity are so strict. It's almost suffocating! My sisters say that the sc
I feel that there are some things that are just so inherent within us that we can't help but do them. Yes, we should always try to be good and not do them, but in this day and age it's like some of these sins are a natural way of life. I don't know, I am no theologian. I am just a normal flawed person who is naturally curious. I feel that I am at a point in my life where I want to delve deeper into my spirtuality and it's just hard when what you feel is right is hurting others.
Yes, my sisters were hurt about my choice in Contemporary Buddhisim, which again is a person who is both partly Christian and partly Buddhist. They basically said that I CAN'T mix the two, but you know what, who said I can't? I still believe in God and Jesus, even thought I question some of the events in the bible, I am still a good and sometimes honest Christian woman.
Anyways, enough of my rambling
I thought I'd post this because Martin Freeman is awesome!
I saw this on Colbert and just had to post this. Freaking Hilarious!!!!
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Previous PostsUpdate!! Plus a couple of my favorite youtube vids if anyone's interested....., posted May 19th, 2015
My life as of right now, posted May 15th, 2015
Bart Bakers " Shake it Off " Parody, posted April 21st, 2015
Surgery and the Friendship Conundrum., posted April 21st, 2015
My life, as it is so far....., posted April 11th, 2015
Excited for the Rise of the Tomb Raider game, posted March 16th, 2015
, posted March 16th, 2015
Updating....if anyone cares., posted February 26th, 2015
The Nightmare that is the Fifty Shades of Grey Movie, posted February 14th, 2015
The Good, bad and the freakin' awesome!, posted February 12th, 2015
Emergency Surgery, posted February 11th, 2015
Whatever happened to the Experience Project?????, posted February 1st, 2015
Celeb marriages, posted January 16th, 2015
Life, as of late., posted January 10th, 2015
Sometimes school just plain sucks!, posted January 4th, 2015
Christmas, posted December 25th, 2014
Life and the Holidays, posted December 18th, 2014
Bilbo now works at a Paper Company after saving middle earth, posted December 18th, 2014
This is what happens when you interview Smaug.....lol, posted December 12th, 2014
Benedict Cumberbatch & Reese Witherspoon lip locking......OMFG!, posted December 11th, 2014
Holiday Blues, posted December 9th, 2014
Thanksgiving Blues, posted December 3rd, 2014
It's a sad, sad day...., posted November 14th, 2014
My smarts are in the right area, posted November 9th, 2014
Incompetence, posted October 31st, 2014
Fickle Friendship, posted October 19th, 2014
My computer's an Alien ( Tee he he...), posted October 14th, 2014
, posted September 26th, 2014
Intolerance, posted September 25th, 2014
Religious Stigma, posted September 22nd, 2014
The Lost Jewel, posted September 20th, 2014
Spiritual Growth, posted September 13th, 2014
On the fringes of Faith, posted September 1st, 2014
The Ultimate Dog Tease, posted August 31st, 2014
Some people...., posted August 25th, 2014
Depression ( PT2 ) My thoughts on Robin William's Passing, posted August 13th, 2014, 2 comments
Robin Williams, Depression and the darker side of life., posted August 12th, 2014, 1 comment
A life changing decision, posted August 7th, 2014
The Atrocity that is Fifty Shades of Grey ( Trailer Included ), posted August 1st, 2014
Update on Life, posted July 30th, 2014
I hate The Fifty Shades of Grey Group, posted July 24th, 2014
"Friendenemy", posted July 7th, 2014
The flute blues, posted June 26th, 2014
So many doors...which one do I choose?, posted June 14th, 2014, 1 comment
Week 1 of Summer semester and the drama that ensues...., posted May 31st, 2014
A Needed Rant, posted May 21st, 2014
Important Notice, posted May 21st, 2014
Update on Life, posted May 15th, 2014
The Verdict is in!, posted May 12th, 2014
Finally over, posted May 8th, 2014
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