Okay, so updating on my life...so far.
I've been battling this wicked UTI for weeks now, but am hopefully getting over it with the antibiotics that they've given me. Classes are going well. Passing both with good grades. No friend drama to speak of, thank God. My Uncle from England's coming to visit during the end of March. I'm sort of apprehensive because the last visit didn't go so well.
I was going through some issues with my sisters. What else is new? Anyways, I didn't know how to deal with my anger in a constructive manner at the time. Long story short, my uncle thought it was his fault and I feel bad for him being put in that position. The truth of the matter is, I was a bitch, but not intentionally. I was angry at my sisters because the whole time he visited, they're were complete suck-ups! They even had the gale to say bad things about me to him. Making me out to be a problem child or whatever. Of course my anger didn't help.
I don't want a repeat of last time. I am not the same girl, but that doesn't mean I'm fucking perfect either. I just don't want a lecture from him either. I don't want to be told how I should be because I am becoming the woman that I want and need to be. I refuse to to conform to ANYONE'S expectations.
Oh, here's the kicker, my eldest sister even had the balls to tell mom what she should and should not say to her own brother. It fucking pisses me off because she, of all people, should not be dictating to her own mother. If mom has some personal issues to hash with her own brother, then she is entitled to. This may be the last time they ever see each other and she needs to take the opportunity to do what she needs to do.
When I say that my sisters were suck-ups, I mean it wasn't just them practicing good social edicit. They were all over him to make themselves look good while I was like, yeah, " Hi, my name is Lisa. Remember, your OTHER neice?" okay, so I didn't say that but you get the picture.
I personally feel that a person shouldn't have to over sell themselves to a person to get that person to like you. In fact, in just makes you look completely artificial. Just being yourself and practicing good social edicit when the situation calls for it, is enough. But WTH do I know. I am not exactly a social butterfly, never have been.
Which is why I was teased so much in school, but whatever. I've sung that song on here many times, so I'm not going to rehash. Anyways, I am going to Cosi's museam's Sherlock Holmes exhibit. So oober excited because I am a Sherlockian, lol ;) Anyways, that's pretty much it--
Okay, so last night I had thee craziest dream. Well, more like recalling a memory. So, when I was a freshman in High School I decided to color my hair red. Sadly, it was before a Band concert and my sister decided to use a crappy box color. As a result, because of her limited experience at the time, I ended up with carrot orange hair. I couldn't exactly go and have it toned down and it no amount of washing would wash away that color over night. Nope! I was freaking stuck with it!
Suffice to say, I was embarrased, but laughed it off and moved on. Now I look back at it with laughter. Everytime I see someone with dyed red hair, like dramatic red hair, I can't help but laugh at them. Not to be mean, because I am NOT a judgemental person. But it just reminds me of that day and the humiliation and funny time that I had to go through. Seriously though, please think about it before you decide to go that color. Not everyone can pull it off, even if they think they can.
I think I had this dream because I saw a girl on the way to my math class who had dyed her hair red. It looked horrible. She was wearing dark lipstick that really clashed with the hair. Her skin tone made it worse and I was like, " Oh dear Lord, this just brings back bad memories." I wanted to tell her the truth, but I am not THAT person. I don't go and make people feel bad. It can be a daunting experience when you do something like that and everyone looks at you like you are the wife of Ronald McDonald. Yeah, someone told me that once.
The upside is when the red hair fades, it looks really pretty. My sister colored my hair once a more subtle and compliment red once, more like an auburn. It was beautiful.
I don't know why I've suddenly decided to divulduge this, I guess I just needed to get this little memory off my chest. Plus, it was kind of funny. Got a lot of good laughs out of it. A lot of fond memories.
Anyways, gotta jet--
Okay, so today was pretty interesting. Went to the supermarket the other day and started talking to this women in a cafe that was in the store. We started talking about a magazine article, can't remember what the exact name or which magazine it was published in, but it was about Evolution vs. Creationism. I think it had something to do with the HBO Questioning Darwin Documentary that aired yesteday. ( Which was very informative btw!)
Anyways, I had no idea that this women was basically a creationist. She seemed like a nice person at first. Then when I started to talk about my theory and the fact that I believe in the theory of Evolution, she went ape shit on me! ( Pun intended, tee, he, he) She started quoting bible verses on me and basically saying that I was going to go to hell if I didn't believe in the word of God. I tried to calm her down and say explain to her of my theory and my beliefs, but she wouldn't have it. It was like my words had suddenly become poisin to her.
Realizing that it was a lost cause, I calmly walked away from her and said nothing more. So, I continued to go about my buisness within the store when who should I see coming my way, the ape shit creationist! ( Please keep in mind that regardless of my recent experience, I respect creationist and anyone for that matter with their own personal beliefs.) Anyways, I made a bee line for the other direction, but she caught up with me and started talking to me again. She was so aggressive about her faith and claimed that she felt the need to save me from a life of sin.
To be honest, the woman scared the living shit out of me. Despite how scared I was I was angry as well. How dare this woman basically stalk me around a store and bible bump me! What right does she think she has to harrass people like that? She sits there and calls herself a good Christian woman, and yet she behaved like a mad woman because I believe in the theory of Evolution.
I calmly explained that if she wouldn't leave me alone, then I'd have to call a supervisor. She however wouldn't listen because she was so wrapped up in her own shit to notice that she was making a total ass of herself. Thankfully a supervisor came by and difused the situation. Heck, he even escorted the lady away from me when she was like, " I need to save this poor child, I need to save this poor child!" Yes, she yelled that in a freaking supermarket. I was so embarrased, but I wasn't about to let her ignorance affect me, so I went on with the shopping.
The last time I saw her was when were in the checkout. She stopped me and said she was sorry and that her intentions were honorable. I accepted like a good Christian, but I gave a few parting words that I think shook her up a bit. I basically said that a true Christian person wouldn't push their personal philosophies down a person's throat. They would respect that other person's beliefs.
Anyways, that's pretty much it. Keep in mind though, I am not an atheist just because I believe in the Theory of Evolution. To put it simply, I believe that there is a God, but he's more of a concious energy that created the universe. Evolution is just one way of explaining how we came to be. Personally, I am not sure what I think of the stories in the bible. I respect their significance, but some of them seem unrealistic to me. Yeah, maybe I do sound like an athiest a bit, but I do know in my heart that there is a God, and that he or she is there whenever I need guidance. No amount of theories or sc
Okay, so I was inspired by my previous blogs and recent events and wrote a letter to my sisters. I've reread it at least 10 times now and despite my usual brashness, It speaks true.
I basically touched on everything that's wrong with our current relationship status. I told them that I didn't want this tension to be forever, that we all three needed to except each other and most importantly, ourselves for who are and that I ulitmately want a relationship with them. The rest is private, not to be disclosed in this blog.
I haven't sent it yet, I can't just yet . Something's holding me back. I'm afraid of the backlash and how it could affect mum and dad. They are what matters to me the most. I live with them, the put up with my shit and I feel like I owe it to them to try and at least patch things up with my sisters. However, I am not going to do all the work. It's up to THEM to accept me as I am, flaws and all, and just let nature take its course. Anyways, to anyone who cares and actually reads my blog, I will keep you all abreast on new developments.
Ugh, sisters! Sometimes I wonder if having sisters is a blessing or a curse. Lately, I'm more inclined to believe that they're a curse. Okay, so long story short, my sisters are having fianacial issues. So, we may have to rent a house and all live togther in the near future. I feel bad for them because they are trying so hard to make it, but truthfully, I don't want to live with them. I can't!
Call me selfish if you want, I care not, but we just don't get along with each other. 1) They're's the age gap. 2) They're lifestyle is completely different from ours and 3) They're unable to accept certain things about me and other people, which impedes them from many things that could make their lives a lot easier.
Granted, I'm no angel, but neither are they. The parents went down to their place to discuss the pressing situation. So naturally, my sisters rallied on about how bad of a person I am. Heck, according to mum, my eldest sister cried because of my 'supposed' antics. I am sad that she feels so strongly, but she blows things way out of proportion, plus, she doesn't live with us. She only has fragmented ideas and old wounds that make up her conception of me. To judge me ba
I am NOT what they percieve me to be. Sure, like I said, I have my issues, but that's no reason to shun me out of their lives. I have sung this tune before, but I'm so sick and tired of being critisized by them. They are such hypocrites to judge and reprimand me for shit that they do themselves.
Basically the talk consisted of them bashing me, but saying what they do and how they treat me is okay. It's apparently justified because I am apparently a bad apple. This isn't me playing the victim card, this is me saying how I feel. I just wish they'd sit back and take the time to listen to what I truly had to say.
Anyways, I've something to do, so,
I feel as if I'm now at another turning point in my life. I feel as if I'm transitioning more into the woman that I want to be and am leaving behind everything that has held me back for so long. I went to a gym for the first time in my life and worked out. A sense of empowerment washed over me like nothing else I've ever felt before. Who knew that this would be it, that this would be my new favorite thing to do.
I feel so foolish for holding back on so many things for so long. I'm 26 years old and this is the first time I've ever felt this empowered. I thought writing, being able to play musical instruments was the shit, but whoo boy, was I fucking wrong! I don't think I'll be able to explain in words how liberated I feel, but thank you God for finally getting through to me. That and my parents, for being so patient with me. Anyways, that's all for now
First off, I feel that I should explain about my rather aggressive outburst on my last blog. You see, I saw this Facebook post on my sisters page. She basically said that she and my other sister had finally joined a gym. I honestly don't know what happened, but all this anger that I've been feeling towards them sort of spilt over the edge. I felt at the time that posting my feelings on EP would help, which it did to a certain degree, but this still doesn't change the fact that I sounded like a total angry gremlin, lol. Basically the reason why I was angry because they both had promised for a while now, that we'd work out together. That it would be a team activity.
I am normally not that aggressive, so to anyone who ever reads my stories, blogs, ect... please don't get the wrong impression. I am really a nice, mellow and laid back person with issues just like everyone else. I just got angry, really angry. End of story.
Anyways, that being said, I finally did something that I've been wanting to do for a long time, but could never afford to up until now. I joined a gym. Yes, my anger towards my sisters sort of spurred me to do so, but also, they recommended the gym when I confronted them about it. So yes, I sort of feel stupid for getting angry, but there are still some underlining issues that I had addressed within the blog that needs to be sorted out between us.
As for my life in general. It's good. I'm taking an beginners Adobe Photoshop class, which is required. I'm also retaking my Part II ( Math 1030 ) class. I am doing real well in both areas. My boyfriend and I are...drifting apart. It's not that we don't love each other, because we do, but we are both so busy with our lives that we never have time for each other any more. I honestly don't know where are relationship's going to end up now.
In the beginning, we had an intense love. I'll admit it. Now...I don't know. He's my first for everything. My first kiss, first person who I choose to sleep with, first man I'd ever said " I Love you" to. I just don't know where we are heading anymore. He has some major issues and is real shy, which has been hard for me to deal with, but I've learned to look past his issues because I honestly love him. He's sometimes been there when no one else has and we've had a pretty rocky road since the beginning.
Right now I am going to focous on school and getting back on track with him, if we can. If not, then, well I don't want to even think about the " What if's " right now. As for making new friends, haven't made any face-to-face ones yet, but I am optimistic. Maybe I'll meet some new people at the gym? Who knows. It's not like I focus my life on making friends. To anyone who reads my stories, blogs, ect... on a regular basis, you know how I feel about the whole friendship issue.
Thank goodness I've had no real friend drama as of late. Splitting with Tiana, my ex-ep friend, was the best thing for me. My stress level has been so minimal since then. I can honestly say that I hope she is well and has moved on like me. I know how hard it is to move on after a bad split, so I'm going to assume that she had some difficulties as well.
Anyways, I'm pretty much done rambling for now
It must be nice to be able to do fun stuff with one's sisters. It's too bad that I'll never find out what that's like. You know what, I have a secret. I'm not really their sister. I'm just related to them by blood. To be honest, we are perfect strangers that occassionally have to inhabit the same space from time to time. But ssshhhh... don't tell, alright?
Truthfully, they'd rather befriend and spend their time with a psychotic bitch that, according to my mum, smeared shit about me all over her Facebook page. That little twat may have been cryptic and shit, but we all know just who she was talking about. Regardless of my ex-friend's crap, they still sing her praises while I get looked down upon as being a so-called 'disapointment'.
No, it doesn't matter that I've been replaced by my eldest sister's best friend. Nope, not at all. I sometimes wonder if they would care about me if I'd vanish out of their lives. Would they even give a shit? Hah, not likely. They'd probably just roll their eyes and be like, " There she goes again with her 'drama'."
They sit there and wonder why I get upset when we're together when it's their bad treatment of me that riles me up. They blame me for their misfortunate relationship with our parents, despite the fact that I am really not to blame. We all make our own choices and we have to live with them, but no, let's blame the little sister because it's easy. It's not like I have any real feelings anyways. I'm just this disposable body that they can dispense their crap on when they need to offload their frustrations.
I'm just someone to be ingnored when I'm supposedly being annoying, even though I sometimes never say anything at all. Yeah, I'm such a bad person, right? When I speak out, I'm playing the " Victim " card. So you see, I. Can't. Win. No matter what I do or say, it will NEVER be good enough for them. Nope, my apparent surface flaws are too much for them to handle.
In respose to this, I say, FUCK YOU. Fuck you sisters for making me feel this way, for making me feel inadequate. I will say this though. One day, things will be different. I will be done with school, out on my own and will soar way above what either of you will ever be. Call me a bitch if you want, but your narrow minded view of the world and people will always limit your imagination, NOT mine! I am proud to say that I am a open minded individual. With a heart, soul and yes, feelings! You two however are narrow minded a-holes!
You call yourself Christians? Well, I'm not saint myself, but I know for a fact that a true christian would never treat me like you do. You even treat your animals better than you treat me! One day you'll regret what you've done, but it'll be too late. Mum and Dad will be gone and I'll be living my life, WITHOUT YOU TWO IN IT! However this isn't set in stone, per say. Things can change if you just accept me for who I am and accept my flaws, but that's up to them. All I know is that my life will go on with or without them. They can have each other. I hope their happy together.
Always been a fan of Bill Nye. What do you think about Creationisim? Me, I personally think that there is a God, but he's more of a concious energy that created the universe. The theory of Evolution is just a plausiable way of explaning how we came to be. Like Bill said " It's the science of life ". I don't think creationisim is completely dangerous, but it can be if you close your mind to other possibilties. Overall, I like to keep an open mind. I think it's the best way to deal with contriversial subjects like this.
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Do you remember a show on the WB called Veronica Mars? You know, the kick-ass teenage detective? Yeah, well they've made a movie that's coming out sometime this year. Personally, I know it won't be as good as the show, too much time has gone by, but I know they'll make it good enough. Plus, the characters themselves would have to seem more evolved than their teenage counterparts, they're adults now.
I loved this show as a teenager. When I looked at the character Veronica, I realized how empowered she made me feel. I know, strange, but she doesn't take crap from people and is wicked smart too. Her sassyness is what I loved the most about the character, she always had something witty to say.
Anyways, they've just released a trailer.
To any of you who've ever read any of my previous blogs, you all probably know that I hate the Fifty Shades of Grey Trilogy. So, the fact that I am being judged for my opinion by my own sisters should not come as a complete shock to me, but strangely enough, it does. They glorify this series and sometimes make comments like " I will find my own Christian Grey" or " Oh he is perfect Christian Grey material."
Yah, I admit, whenver I would hear that coming from either of them, I'd cringe, but I respect their opinions. So, when I was asked why, I responded in kind and with complete and utter honesty.
I told them how utterly one unbelieveable the plot in these stories are. How one-dimensional and utterly silly all of the characters are and that's obvious that this was a fanfiction. How this serious glorifies the sexual preversness of men and the the sexual abuse of women. Not to mention the poor writing style and the British slurrs that Anna uses, despite the fact that she's American living in the USA! What, was E.L James to lazy to do the research and change those tiny aspects? Seriously, any good writer would do so.
I tried to explain that Christian Grey is not a man who you'd really want to be with because he is sexually abusive and down right cruel. I mean come on! In the first book, he threatens to kill her numerous times throughout the story. Seriously, what kind of women would be attracted to that?
On the other hand, the books series does dive into the darker side of human nature, which is what she was going for I guess. It's just so poorly concieved. I'm not judging anyone who is into BDSM, but seriously, I've even heard some people who are say that this series is utter and complete crap! Anyways, of course my opinon on the matter when in through one ear and out the other. I'm not suprised, but I worry. I worry that they think Christian Grey is the typical guy because in all seriousness, he's not. Christain Grey is a fantasy that no man could ever aspire to be.
If I were to walk down the street and ever come across him, I'd kick him in the nads and take away his ability to fuck or reproduce. Also, Anna said " My inner goddess" and " Oh my!" Way too many times for my liking. The fact that she's a virgin and when they do it for the first time she has multiple orgasms is so unrealisitc. My first time, I will admit, I didn't even have one. I was too confused, shell shocked and felt down right icky afterwards to call it " Magical" or " Omg, I just like had thee best sex, evah!" But whatever, they will believe what they want to.
Anyways I'm done venting,
I watched this documentary on Netflix called " Blackfish ", which is basically about Orcas that are being used in amusement parks. I never realized in my wildest dreams that the Orac's were suffering from being in such an inclosed place. ( Heh, shows how much I know)
So my family care physicians office called me yesterday morning, three times before I finally decide to pick up the phone. I am so not a morning person btw, lol. Anyways, the sole purpose for the call was to 'educate' me on what an Emergency Room is and what it's for. They're basically pissed off because I've had to go so much as of late because of my constant infections, which to them is something that they think can wait to be treated by a primary care physician.
What a crock! Seriously? You have how many freaking patients to deal with on a daily basis who require more attention than I do, and yet you waste your time on supposedly 'educating' me on something so banal. Ugh, that really crumbles my freaking cookie!
I have no insurance...yet. I am still trying to pick a reasonable plan as of right now. Anyways, I am going to a shitty sliding fee scale free clinics who only have like 2 doctors seeing patients with no insurance. So, logically, those doctors are going to be jammed packed with patients. So, logically, getting in to see one of them at a moments notice would be damn near impossible! So, I can't afford to go those fast track clinics, so, the only option I have is to go to the ER.
Sure, I hate it because I feel that my problems are banal compared to what they usually get in there, but what's the other alternative? A witch doctor!!! I mean, seriously? Come on! The wait to see a doctor is like three weeks to a month where I go. That's ridiculous, right? One shouldn't have to wait that long to see a doctor, and to bitch about the fact that I choose to go to the ER rather than seeing them just goes to show how money hungry these assholes are.
So, if I have a UTI that's really bothering me, then I should wait for them, yeah? I should just let the infection grow until they can see me, right? Oh yeah, great, smashing! If an infection goes to the kidneys and makes me violently ill it won't matter, because I will 'eventually' get to see a doctor. Despite the fact that I have to be extremely careful when it comes to my bladder and kidneys because of my preexisting conditions.
Anyways, I'm done with my rambling.
So, finals are officially over for me. I believe I've passed two out of the three classes that I took this semester. Sadly, I was so sick that I couldn't even take the math final. So now I have to retake the class. Oh well, what's done is done and there's no use weeping over it. I've let so much get me down lately, that I feel like I'm loosing myself, which I can't let happen.
Before I decided to go back to college, I was lost. Depression was like my best friend in a morbid sort of way. Then, I woke up and realized that I could do better. So I made the decision to go back to college, thus leading me here. Anyways, because of my illnesses that I've had to endure for the past few months, I felt like I was becoming the old me again, which I despise.
So, I'm now determined, more than ever to remain optimistic, despite what may happen. Well, I'll at least try to. I can't promise that I'll always be a happy camper, lol. Anyways, now I can sit back and just enjoy life for a while. Let's hope this New Year is one of change.
We all have our New Years "to-do" lists, right? We promise ourselves that we'll take that trip, loose weight, fall in love, yada, yada, yada..... Well, for me, my biggest resolution is to loose weight. I know, so cliche, but I'm going to make more than an effort to shed the pounds. I admit, depression and life's oh-so sucky disappointments is what keeps me from fulfilling my goals, but not this time.
I feel as if I am at a turning point in my life. A point where I have to make a choice. Either I stay as I am and continue to be a miserable fatty, ( yes, I called myself a fatty) or fight like hell to change. I choose the latter, I choose change! I am not ashamed for being who I am, despite how hard some people try to make me feel bad. Granted, I am a work in progress, but I know I'm beautiful regardless of my size. What drives me is my health, which isn't great. I know that once I start to really work on shedding the pounds, then my existing health issues won't be so bad.
So, that is that. I am going to change my life. If I can get through all this college math like I have, then I can do this. I just have to push myself harder than I ever had before.
Anyways, other than that life is...meh. I am probably going to have to retake this math class that I'm currently in because I've been sick so much. So, at least I know that it isn't because I can't do it, because I can. My heath issues have been with my kidneys, nothing too serious mind you, but I enough to practically keep me in bed all the time. Infections after infections have ailed me because of my weak immune system. So, I am going to go back to see my Gastro. doctor to get myself straightened out and then see a Urologist to get my other situation straightened out.
As for friend drama, I'm happy to report that I have none! Yes, you heard me, none! Ever since I let her go, life has been good in that department. I admit, I was kind of depressed about it for a while, but now I know that one person in your life really does make a difference. Good thing I made the right choice. Anyways, other than that, I plan on enjoying my time off when finals are over. Which will be the week after Thanksgiving. Yippy!
Must dash for some ZzzzZZzzz....
Okay, I just have to get this off my chest. You’ve all probably heard about the Fifty Shades of Grey Trilogy? Heh, what female today hasn’t? lol. Well, in short, I hate it! Everything about these books demoralizes women and glorifies men and their sexual perverseness.
I remember my sisters gushing about these books and telling me that I have to read them. I was like, “ Okay, what do I have to loose?” So, I bought the first book on Itunes and read it through. The book was so poorly written that it’s completely obvious that it was indeed a Fan Fic, before it was put into print. The plot, in my opinion, was so poorly conceived and utterly unbelievable. All of the characters were so one-dimensional, maybe except for Christian himself. He was kind of interesting, but in my opinion, he’s one sick little puppy.
What really bothers me is the obvious glorification of sexual abuse of women. The obviously messed up relationship and perverted sexual encounters left a sour taste in my mouth. Even though Anna consented to such abuse, she was only doing it because of Christian’s ‘oh-so-mysterious’ dark past and sexual magnetism. Well, that’s my opinion at least.
Overall, I am kind of surprised that this piece of trash got past the editors. Seriously, I’ve read Harlequin Romance Novels that are better than this. The fact that they want to make a movie out of this is unbelievable to me. Well, not so much because it’s obvious that they just want to do it for money and shock value. Seriously though, the best thing to do with this is make porn out of it. That’s all it’s really good for anyways. I just hope the movie will be so bad that they’ll not make the others. I’ve heard of movies where they make the first of the trilogy or series and then not make the rest because the first one sucked.
Anyways, these are pretty much my thoughts on the matter.
So a lot has happened since I last posted a blog. I've been really sick these past couple of weeks, which has also been impeding me from attending my math class on a regular basis. Now I am behind with math and am fighting to catch up. I am praying that I at least get a C in this class, but I doubt I pass this math. If I do then it'll be a freaking miracle.
Anyways, aside from my health issues and school issues, I've no other real drama to complain about, lol. I am glad of it. I was getting sick and tired of having to deal with shitty ex-friends. I've been having some issues with my sisters, which is nothing new, but it's kind of hard to do what needs to be done when you're in my current living situation.
You see, it all boils down to this. Just this past month, there was a major row between my sisters and I during our mums b-day party. In short, I was feeling like shit because I was sick and was on heavy antibiotics that were causing me to feel sick in the first place. I only went to my sisters place because it was mums b-day out of respect. I wanted to be there for mum and not put that kind of strain on the day.
Of course my sisters complained about my short temper. Yes, I didn't get a lot of sleep and I was just feeling like total shite. So, logically I was rowdy because of it. It got to the point where I just wanted to go home because I was in some serious pain and I felt like I was going to vomit up my dinner, but of course, my sisters thought that it was all for show. Yes, sadly, they think I over exaggerate my ailments, which I don't, under any circumstances.
My afflictions that plague me daily are REAL! Why would I lie about being sick and put people out? It just doesn't make sense to me. When I'm sick, I'm sick. No if, ands or buts about it. So, long story short, we quarreled and on the ride home, I was basically bawling my freaking eyes out.
Later on, I then came to a conclusion. I realized that I had to exclude them from my life in order to show them that I'm not a fucking doormat, scapegoat, ext... for them to vent out all of their frustrations on. So, when my eldest sisters b-day came around, I excluded myself from the activities, except dinner. Even then, I basically shunned them out until they basically forced me to talk to them.
I know to some, I sound childish, but I wanted to make a statement. I wanted to show them what they did was wrong and that they aren't aloud to treat me this way. They may not agree with some of the things that I do, but it's MY life. I am doing the best I can with what's been handed to me and I'm not about to change for them. Why should I? I am clearly not the one with the problems, they are.
They harbor all these resentments and what not towards me that were spawned from childhood. So, how is that my problem? Seriously, I've enough of my own. I don't need to deal with their as well.
Anyways, other than that, Finals are coming up in three weeks, which means that I've a month off after. I am so excited, and yet afraid because it's crunch time! I only hope that I pass this math challenge that God's bestowed upon me.
Previous PostsSo, yeah, updating on life., posted February 26th, 2014
The Night of Red Hair, lol., posted February 15th, 2014
Bullied by a creationist., posted February 11th, 2014
Bill Nye VS. Ken Ham: Creationism VS. Evolution. What do you believe?, posted February 5th, 2014
Quick Update, posted February 4th, 2014
Ugh, sisters., posted February 3rd, 2014
Turning Point, posted February 2nd, 2014
Apology & Update on my Life, posted January 28th, 2014
Surface Flaws: A Rant., posted January 25th, 2014
Bill Nye on Creationism, posted January 23rd, 2014
Veronica Mars: The Movie, posted January 5th, 2014
Fifty Shades of Sisterly tension, posted January 4th, 2014
Blackfish, the documentary, posted December 27th, 2013
No one's supposed to cry on Christmas, posted December 26th, 2013
ER Education 101, posted December 13th, 2013
Christmas break, yahoo....right?, posted December 6th, 2013
Ready for some real changes, posted November 23rd, 2013
Fifty Shades of Suck!, posted November 15th, 2013, 1 comment
Almost Done...., posted November 14th, 2013
Loki, Owen Wilson Style, posted October 21st, 2013
I love my Egyptian Mau, posted October 13th, 2013
Updating, posted October 4th, 2013, 1 comment
Nixie, our new addition :), posted September 26th, 2013
Updating..., posted September 23rd, 2013
Reflections, posted September 19th, 2013
Funny Happenings at Walmart, posted September 13th, 2013
Just had to post this :), posted September 13th, 2013
My life....so far, posted September 13th, 2013
A simple suggestion, posted September 13th, 2013
Happiness in spades ;), posted September 12th, 2013
You can't help them all, posted September 8th, 2013
Just okay., posted September 7th, 2013
WTF is this?, posted September 3rd, 2013
Doesn't make a difference, posted September 2nd, 2013
We are who we are, posted August 30th, 2013
As is., posted August 27th, 2013
Dust yourself off and start anew., posted August 26th, 2013, 1 comment
Just one more thing, posted August 25th, 2013
Accused, posted August 25th, 2013
Same rules apply to all....right?, posted August 25th, 2013, 2 comments
Oh woe is me....oh shut the hell up!, posted August 24th, 2013
First Kiss, posted August 23rd, 2013
False Pretenses, posted August 21st, 2013
Injustice, posted August 9th, 2013
What I want to see, like now, but alas, all good things come to those who wait, right?, posted August 9th, 2013
Holy Crap!, posted August 8th, 2013
Rest in peace, posted August 8th, 2013
R.I.P Sheba, posted August 7th, 2013
My Petition, posted August 6th, 2013, 1 comment
CBS vs. Time Warner, posted August 4th, 2013
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