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And the drama continues....

I am such a klutz! I was working out yesterday at the gym and fell of a fitness bike. Long story short, I tore a muscle, according to the ER doctor. Now I probably won't be able to work out for at least a week or so. Anyways, Uncle John sent mum and dad a letter yesterday. Basically, he said that he regreted that he didn't have enough time to chat with mum, his sister. 

I am so pissed because I now know, more than ever, that my sisters made damn sure that Mum and Uncle John didn't get any alone time during the entire trip. How dare they?! I would like to know how they are able to justify their actions. It's pretty obvious that they didn't want mum to talk to him because they were afraid that any fight might ruin their relationship with their uncle. Regardless of this, they had NO right to dictate and ignore mums requests. 

I'm not supposed to know about the email, but I am glad that my parents told me because it confirms my suspicions. I intend to continue to let nature take it's course and let the cards fall as they may, but that doesn't stop me from being pissed off! I am so sick of my sisters " I'm superior and the sun shines out of my ass " additude.

My middle sister even had the gual to call me two days before Uncle John was to come over, basically calling to dicate to me about proper social edicate. I of course gave her a peice of my mind, but still, what right does they have to talk down and patronize me? None, that's what. 

Anyways, I'm not sure what's going to come out of all of this, but what I do know is that my older sisters are going to pay for what they did. Maybe not in this lifetime, but karma always find a way to bit one in the ass...

End Rant


I heart photoshop

Just some art creations that I created using Photoshop. 


Bitter disappointments....

Okay, so I have been ill so much this week and quite frankly, I'm kind of happy about this. I also had an emergancy dental procedure because I had a chipped tooth that had a cavity down to the nerve. 

Anyways, I have barely seen my uncle since he's been here. I am sad, but kind of relieved because I don't have to deal with my sisters shit. I don't have to sit and watch them put on their little show. Sure, I love my uncle, but I really have nothing to say to him. He already has preconcived opinons about me, no thanks to my older sisters, so nothing I say or do will change his mind. 

Like I have expected, my eldest sister undermines me in front of him to make herself look good. I had my tooth out yesterday and was tired because they gave me "laughing gas" and quite framkly, I felt like total shite afterwards. We had a pizza party back at his hotel, but I was so sick that I had to leave early and go home. 

Before I left my eldest sister was ordering me around like a fucking scullery maid. Embarrassing me in front of John, not caring as well. She said to me " Oh your tooth pain is not THAT bad. You're not THAT sick." Yeah, like she's ever experienced what I have had to go through. She doesn't have my health problems, she doesn't understand and yet she feels she has the right to make statements because she THINKS that she is right. 

What I am trying to say, and am failing rather miserably is that I feel that there is no point for me being there. This is their show, not mine. I want no part of this spectacle that they are putting on. Sure, they are trying to make his visit fun, but they both never miss an opportunity to put me down. I just don't want to have to deal with the humilation and I don't want to get into a fight either, so, I avoid having to be with them and John as much as possible. Well, not really. I have been genuinely sick this week with a ongoing UTI, IBS and that damn tooth shit. 

Anyways, I am done ranting for now. 

Peace Out


Swing and a miss...


I had a lot of back pain today and I was unable to meet Uncle John at the air port. I am worried that my sisters will give mum and dad hell for me not being there, but I doubt they'll even care. They will be putting on their best show. Kind of makes me wish I was there, plus popcorn. I'm in need for some entertainment, lol. 

Anyways, It's kind of funny, but sad when you say something totally profound on Facebook, but no one even bothers to hit "like" or even make a comment.  I wrote a small footnote on bullying that was attached to a article found on I was so touched by the video that I felt the need to share and write my own little peice. 

Of course though it was a swing and a miss! I shouldn't feel so bothered about this, but I can't help it. For once I'd just like someone to acknoweldge that I am there. Sure, I have Facebook friends, but I barely talk to anyone on there. And I have known some of these people since I was little. 

Whenever I comment on their posts it's like I don't exist. I get totally ignored. I don't understand what it is about me that turns people off. My boyfriend doesn't feel the same way about me, but of course, he is not a big social media fan like I am. Maybe this is the reason why. He doesn't want to deal with this elitest crap that goes on those sites. Regardless, it would be nice to be aknowledged by more than one person on Facebook. 

Of course I have a hard time approaching people, whether it be face to face or virtually. I have a social anxiety disorder and with that, comes baggage. I do still make a conservitave effort when I can. Anyways, I am done venting for now.

I will keep you all abreast with further developments during Uncle John's visit. 




So my Uncle John is flying in later on today. I am super nervous for various reasons, but mostly, I am nervous about how I'm going to be able to deal with my two older sisters. I just know they are going to do their little suck-up routine to impress him. I know I shouldn't let their actions bother me, but what they make themselves out to be during his visit will no doubt effect me. I just know that they both will try to undermine me, again!

Heh, what else is new? I feel like that is their favorite passtime. Anyways, they are both stressing about his visit, which is making me feel stressed when I really don't need that right now. I am having health issues and am trying to get through school with good grades. I don't need their insecurities dragging me down. 

My second eldest sister basically expected me to take this week off from school! I mean, I know this is an important week, but I still have my priorities. I can't just drop my life to suit them. My uncle isn't expecting it, so why should they? I don't have to put on a show to impress him. Being myself is good enough as far as I am concerened. If they want to put on some show then that's their deal.  

Whew! I really needed to vent, lol. Anyways, I may do a blog every day to update on his visit. I just know there will be plenty of drama to blog about, lol ;)


That's pretty much it

Peace Out!

--- A.S

A Different Arena


Life has been okay. I am getting excellent grades, my health has improved and so far, my relationship with my boyfriend is okay. I just wish I could say the same about my sisters. Yes, I am still fighting 'that' battle. I wrote several differnt versions of the same letter to the both of them about a month ago and have yet to sent it. Yes, my Uncle John's impromtu visit has stalled the process, because quite frankly I don't want to give them the letter right before he comes over. That would be suicide!

I am just so anxious about what's going to happen. There is so much riding on this visit that I wonder if I will get through the week sane. I don't want to be put in the same postion that I was with my sisters before. Yes, I still harbor some anger towards them about the last visit, but my anger is justified considering they basically bashed me in private, which lead to a major fight, thus making Uncle John feel that it was his fault. When in fact it was all of ours, excluding mum, dad and uncle john. 

Anyways, I have had a lot of time to reflect on the issue. I know now, more than ever, that our seperation is due to age gap, intellectualism and life choices.  I'm not going to lie, and I am not saying this to hurt my sisters, but I have been told on numerous occassions that I am more intellecutal than them. I am not saying that they are not smart, because they are, but I know that my thought process is a lot higher than them at times. ( Note: I am not trying to blow my own horn here, okay!) 

As for our life choices, I am more careful than them. They moved out because they thought it was the right thing to do at that age. I personally feel that they've made a lot of their life choices based on the opinions of others and their own insecurities. Yes I admit I was like that for a time, but as I've grown older I've begun to realise that no matter what, always follow your instincts. I feel that the choices that I have made is not to benifit others and what they 'think' I should be doing, but what I feel is right for me.

This of course has made us clash. They think things should be one way when I beg to differ. I know for a fact that under the anger and jealousy lies a sisterly love, but they just let their resentment towards me get in the way. I don't know if my letter is going to change their opinion of me and quite frankly, that is not the reason why I wrote the letters. I just want for them to know how I feel and where I stand. Whatever they do in response is on them, not me!

Anyways, enough of this. 

Peace Out!

A.S far...

Hello all,

Life has been okayish....

I finally went to go see a urologist for my frequent UTI's. Long story short, they are building a case in order to treat me better. Yeah, Cleveland Clinic works a little differently than most hospitals because they actually know what they are doing. They also have thee best urology dept. in the U.S, so I think I'm safe with them :) 

Anyways, life is good. I am going back to the gym, I got an A on my last math test and I've been also asked to join a science club at my college. The S.T.E.M club.  I am also applying for a major schoarship to ensure that my whole college career for the rest of the time will be paid in full while I am going to CSCC.

Awesome, right!!!! If I join this club I am a definate shoe in for one of the scholarships. I am seriously on cloud 9 right now. I am doing so well and I may even be eligable to be a peer tutor for math. 

I can't believe this is happening to me. When I was in high school I was told by teachers and peers alike that I was stupid. That I would only qualify for a menial job because of my learning disability. I was teased, verbally and emotionally abused for my disability and recurring illnesses. I was also hounded my truancy officers because of my bad attendence record in school because of my illnesses. Well, and I know this may sound totally juvinille, but eat your heart out assholes!

Yeah, to all those fucktards who said that I wouldn't make it, well guess what, I AM! So, stick that in your pipe and smoke it! I know I sound like a total prat right now, but when I think of all those teachers who gave up on me, it makes me want to laugh and cry at the same time. I am a science major who is profficent in math!

I never thought in a million years that I'd say that about myself. I know I am tooting my own horn here, but I think I deserve to. For the first time in my life I feel really good about myself. I feel like I know where I am going and I am finally getting the recognition that I deserve. 

I feel like I want to round up all those so-called friend and a certain old childhood EX friend and say, " Yeah, you said I was dumb, you said I was a loser and that I had no life. Well, eat your heart out bitches! Eat dirt!" 

I of course would never say that to their faces. Call me a coward if you like, but I am above that. It's okay to say it on here because this is my blog, and if anyone doesn't like it then don't read it. It's not like anyone's forcing you to. 


must dash


So, yeah, updating on life.

Okay, so updating on my far. 

I've been battling this wicked UTI for weeks now, but am hopefully getting over it with the antibiotics that they've given me. Classes are going well. Passing both with good grades. No friend drama to speak of, thank God. My Uncle from England's coming to visit during the end of March. I'm sort of apprehensive because the last visit didn't go so well. 

I was going through some issues with my sisters. What else is new? Anyways, I didn't know how to deal with my anger in a constructive manner at the time. Long story short, my uncle thought it was his fault and I feel bad for him being put in that position. The truth of the matter is, I was a bitch, but not intentionally. I was angry at my sisters because the whole time he visited, they're were complete suck-ups! They even had the gale to say bad things about me to him. Making me out to be a problem child or whatever.  Of course my anger didn't help.

I don't want a repeat of last time. I am not the same girl, but that doesn't mean I'm fucking perfect either. I just don't want a lecture from him either. I don't want to be told how I should be because I am becoming the woman that I want and need to be. I refuse to to conform to ANYONE'S expectations. 

Oh, here's the kicker, my eldest sister even had the balls to tell mom what she should and should not say to her own brother. It fucking pisses me off because she, of all people, should not be dictating to her own mother. If mom has some personal issues to   hash with her own brother, then she is entitled to. This may be the last time they ever see each other and she needs to take the opportunity to do what she needs to do. 

When I say that my sisters were suck-ups, I mean it wasn't just them practicing good social edicit. They were all over him to make themselves look good while I was like, yeah, " Hi, my name is Lisa. Remember, your OTHER neice?"  okay, so I didn't say that but you get the picture. 

I personally feel that a person shouldn't have to over sell themselves to a person to get that person to like you. In fact, in just makes you look completely artificial. Just being yourself and practicing good social edicit when the situation calls for it, is enough. But WTH do I know. I am not exactly a social butterfly, never have been. 

Which is why I was teased so much in school, but whatever. I've sung that song on here many times, so I'm not going to rehash. Anyways, I am going to Cosi's museam's Sherlock Holmes exhibit. So oober excited because I am a Sherlockian, lol ;) Anyways, that's pretty much it--




The Night of Red Hair, lol.

Okay, so last night I had thee craziest dream. Well, more like recalling a memory. So, when I was a freshman in High School I decided to color my hair red. Sadly, it was before a Band concert and my sister decided to use a crappy box color. As a result, because of her limited experience at the time, I ended up with carrot orange hair. I couldn't exactly go and have it toned down and it no amount of washing would wash away that color over night. Nope! I was freaking stuck with it!

Suffice to say, I was embarrased, but laughed it off and moved on. Now I look back at it with laughter. Everytime I see someone with dyed red hair, like dramatic red hair, I can't help but laugh at them. Not to be mean, because I am NOT a judgemental person. But it just reminds me of that day and the humiliation and funny time that I had to go through.  Seriously though, please think about it before you decide to go that color. Not everyone can pull it off, even if they think they can. 

I think I had this dream because I saw a girl on the way to my math class who had dyed her hair red. It looked horrible. She was wearing dark lipstick that really clashed with the hair. Her skin tone made it worse and I was like, " Oh dear Lord, this just brings back bad memories."  I wanted to tell her the truth, but I am not THAT person. I don't go and make people feel bad. It can be a daunting experience when you do something like that and everyone looks at you like you are the wife of Ronald McDonald. Yeah, someone told me that once. 

The upside is when the red hair fades, it looks really pretty. My sister colored my hair once a more subtle and compliment red once, more like an auburn. It was beautiful. 

I don't know why I've suddenly decided to divulduge this, I guess I just needed to get this little memory off my chest. Plus, it was kind of funny. Got a lot of good laughs out of it. A lot of fond memories. 

Anyways, gotta jet--


Bullied by a creationist.

Okay, so today was pretty interesting. Went to the supermarket the other day and started talking to this women in a cafe that was in the store.  We started talking about a magazine article, can't remember what the exact name or which magazine it was published in, but it was about Evolution vs. Creationism. I think it had something to do with the HBO Questioning Darwin Documentary that aired yesteday. ( Which was very informative btw!)

Anyways, I had no idea that this women was basically a creationist. She seemed like a nice person at first. Then when I started to talk about my theory and the fact that I believe in the theory of Evolution, she went ape shit on me! ( Pun intended, tee, he, he) She started quoting bible verses on me and basically saying that I was going to go to hell if I didn't believe in the word of God. I tried to calm her down and say explain to her of my theory and my beliefs, but she wouldn't have it. It was like my words had suddenly become poisin to her. 

Realizing that it was a lost cause, I calmly walked away from her and said nothing more. So, I continued to go about my buisness within the store when who should I see coming my way, the ape shit creationist! ( Please keep in mind that regardless of my recent experience, I respect creationist and anyone for that matter with their own personal beliefs.) Anyways, I made a bee line for the other direction, but she caught up with me and started talking to me again. She was so aggressive about her faith and claimed that she felt the need to save me from a life of sin. 

To be honest, the woman scared the living shit out of me. Despite how scared I was I was angry as well. How dare this woman basically stalk me around a store and bible bump me! What right does she think she has to harrass people like that? She sits there and calls herself a good Christian woman, and yet she behaved like a mad woman because I believe in the theory of Evolution. 

I calmly explained that if she wouldn't leave me alone, then I'd have to call a supervisor. She however wouldn't listen because she was so wrapped up in her own shit to notice that she was making a total ass of herself.  Thankfully a supervisor came by and difused the situation. Heck, he even escorted the lady away from me when she was like, " I need to save this poor child, I need to save this poor child!" Yes, she yelled that in a freaking supermarket. I was so embarrased, but I wasn't about to let her ignorance affect me, so I went on with the shopping. 

The last time I saw her was when were in the checkout. She stopped me and said she was sorry and that her intentions were honorable. I accepted like a good Christian, but I gave a few parting words that I think shook her up a bit. I basically said that a true Christian person wouldn't push their personal philosophies down a person's throat. They would respect that other person's beliefs. 

Anyways, that's pretty much it. Keep in mind though, I am not an atheist just because I believe in the Theory of Evolution. To put it simply, I believe that there is a God, but he's more of a concious energy that created the universe. Evolution is just one way of explaining how we came to be. Personally, I am not sure what I think of the stories in the bible. I respect their significance, but some of them seem unrealistic to me. Yeah, maybe I do sound like an athiest a bit, but I do know in my heart that there is a God, and that he or she is there whenever I need guidance. No amount of theories or scripture can tell me otherwise. 


Bill Nye VS. Ken Ham: Creationism VS. Evolution. What do you believe?

Quick Update

Okay, so I was inspired by my previous blogs and recent events and wrote a letter to my sisters. I've reread it at least 10 times now and despite my usual brashness, It speaks true. 

I basically touched on everything that's wrong with our current relationship status. I told them that I didn't want this tension to be forever, that we all three needed to except each other and most importantly, ourselves for who are and that I ulitmately want a relationship with them. The rest is private, not to be disclosed in this blog. 

I haven't sent it yet, I can't just yet . Something's holding me back. I'm afraid of the backlash and how it could affect mum and dad. They are what matters to me the most. I live with them, the put up with my shit and I feel like I owe it to them to try and at least patch things up with my sisters. However, I am not going to do all the work. It's up to THEM to accept me as I am, flaws and all, and just let nature take its course. Anyways, to anyone who cares and actually reads my blog, I will keep you all abreast on new developments. 

Peace Out!


Ugh, sisters.

Ugh, sisters! Sometimes I wonder if having sisters is a blessing or a curse. Lately, I'm more inclined to believe that they're a curse. Okay, so long story short, my sisters are having fianacial issues. So, we may have to rent a house and all live togther in the near future. I feel bad for them because they are trying so hard to make it, but truthfully, I don't want to live with them. I can't!

Call me selfish if you want, I care not, but we just don't get along with each other. 1) They're's the age gap. 2) They're lifestyle is completely different from ours and 3) They're unable to accept certain things about me and other people, which impedes them from many things that could make their lives a lot easier. 

Granted, I'm no angel, but neither are they. The parents went down to their place to discuss the pressing situation. So naturally, my sisters rallied on about how bad of a person I am. Heck, according to mum, my eldest sister cried because of my 'supposed' antics. I am sad that she feels so strongly, but she blows things way out of proportion, plus, she doesn't live with us. She only has fragmented ideas and old wounds that make up her conception of me.  To judge me based on such little information is wrong. 

I am NOT what they percieve me to be. Sure, like I said, I have my issues, but that's no reason to shun me out of their lives. I have sung this tune before, but I'm so sick and tired of being critisized by them. They are such hypocrites to judge and reprimand me for shit that they do themselves. 

Basically the talk consisted of them bashing me, but saying what they do and how they treat me is okay. It's apparently justified because I am apparently a bad apple. This isn't me playing the victim card, this is me saying how I feel. I just wish they'd sit back and take the time to listen to what I truly had to say. 

Anyways, I've something to do, so, 



Turning Point

I feel as if I'm now at another turning point in my life. I feel as if I'm transitioning more into the woman that I want to be and am leaving behind everything that has held me back for so long. I went to a gym for the first time in my life and worked out. A sense of empowerment washed over me like nothing else I've ever felt before. Who knew that this would be it, that this would be my new favorite thing to do. 

I feel so foolish for holding back on so many things for so long. I'm 26 years old and this is the first time I've ever felt this empowered. I thought writing, being able to play musical instruments was the shit, but whoo boy, was I fucking wrong! I don't think I'll be able to explain in words how liberated I feel, but thank you God for finally getting through to me. That and my parents, for being so patient with me.  Anyways, that's all for now



Apology & Update on my Life

First off, I feel that I should explain about my rather aggressive outburst on my last blog. You see, I saw this Facebook post on my sisters page. She basically said that she and my other sister had finally joined a gym. I honestly don't know what happened, but all this anger that I've been feeling towards them sort of spilt over the edge. I felt at the time that posting my feelings on EP would help, which it did to a certain degree, but this still doesn't change the fact that I sounded like a total angry gremlin, lol. Basically the reason why I was angry because they both had promised for a while now, that we'd work out together. That it would be a team activity. 

I am normally not that aggressive, so to anyone who ever reads my stories, blogs, ect... please don't get the wrong impression. I am really a nice, mellow and laid back person with issues just like everyone else. I just got angry, really angry. End of story.  

Anyways, that being said, I finally did something that I've been wanting to do for a long time, but could never afford to up until now. I joined a gym. Yes, my anger towards my sisters sort of spurred me to do so, but also, they recommended the gym when I confronted them about it. So yes, I sort of feel stupid for getting angry, but there are still some underlining issues that I had addressed within the blog that needs to be sorted out between us. 

As for my life in general. It's good. I'm taking an beginners Adobe Photoshop class, which is required. I'm also retaking my Part II ( Math 1030 ) class. I am doing real well in both areas. My boyfriend and I are...drifting apart. It's not that we don't love each other, because we do, but we are both so busy with our lives that we never have time for each other any more. I honestly don't know where are relationship's going to end up now. 

In the beginning, we had an intense love. I'll admit it. Now...I don't know. He's my first for everything. My first kiss, first person who I choose to sleep with, first man I'd ever said " I Love you" to. I just don't know where we are heading anymore. He has some major issues and is real shy, which has been hard for me to deal with, but I've learned to look past his issues because I honestly love him. He's sometimes been there when no one else has and we've had a pretty rocky road since the beginning. 

Right now I am going to focous on school and getting back on track with him, if we can. If not, then, well I don't want to even think about the " What if's " right now. As for making new friends, haven't made any face-to-face ones yet, but I am optimistic. Maybe I'll meet some new people at the gym? Who knows. It's not like I focus my life on making friends. To anyone who reads my stories, blogs, ect... on a regular basis, you know how I feel about the whole friendship issue. 

Thank goodness I've had no real friend drama as of late. Splitting with Tiana, my ex-ep friend, was the best thing for me. My stress level has been so minimal since then. I can honestly say that I hope she is well and has moved on like me.  I know how hard it is to move on after a bad split, so I'm going to assume that she had some difficulties as well. 

Anyways, I'm pretty much done rambling for now



Surface Flaws: A Rant.

It must be nice to be able to do fun stuff with one's sisters. It's too bad that I'll never find out what that's like. You know what, I have a secret. I'm not really their sister. I'm just related to them by blood.  To be honest, we are perfect strangers that occassionally have to inhabit the same space from time to time. But ssshhhh... don't tell, alright? 

Truthfully, they'd rather befriend and spend their time with a psychotic bitch that, according to my mum, smeared shit about me all over her Facebook page. That little twat may have been cryptic and shit, but we all know just who she was talking about.  Regardless of my ex-friend's crap, they still sing her praises while I get looked down upon as being a so-called 'disapointment'. 

No, it doesn't matter that I've been replaced by my eldest sister's best friend. Nope, not at all.  I sometimes wonder if they would care about me if I'd vanish out of their lives. Would they even give a shit? Hah, not likely. They'd probably just roll their eyes and be like, " There she goes again with her 'drama'." 

They sit there and wonder why I get upset when we're together when it's their bad treatment of me that riles me up. They blame me for their misfortunate relationship with our parents, despite the fact that I am really not to blame. We all make our own choices and we have to live with them, but no, let's blame the little sister because it's easy. It's not like I have any real feelings anyways. I'm just this disposable body that they can dispense their crap on when they need to offload their frustrations. 

I'm just someone to be ingnored when I'm supposedly being annoying, even though I sometimes never say anything at all. Yeah, I'm such a bad person, right? When I speak out, I'm playing the " Victim " card. So you see, I. Can't. Win. No matter what I do or say, it will NEVER be good enough for them. Nope, my apparent surface flaws are too much for them to handle. 

In respose to this, I say, FUCK YOU. Fuck you sisters for making me feel this way, for making me feel inadequate. I will say this though. One day, things will be different. I will be done with school, out on my own and will soar way above what either of you will ever be. Call me a bitch if you want, but your narrow minded view of the world and people will always limit your imagination, NOT mine! I am proud to say that I am a open minded individual. With a heart, soul and yes, feelings! You two however are narrow minded a-holes!

You call yourself Christians? Well, I'm not saint myself, but I know for a fact that a true christian would never treat me like you do. You even treat your animals better than you treat me! One day you'll regret what you've done, but it'll be too late. Mum and Dad will be gone and I'll be living my life, WITHOUT YOU TWO IN IT! However this isn't set in stone, per say. Things can change if you just accept me for who I am and accept my flaws, but that's up to them.  All I know is that my life will go on with or without them. They can have each other. I hope their happy together. 

End Rant



Bill Nye on Creationism

Always been a fan of Bill Nye. What do you think about Creationisim? Me, I personally think that there is a God, but he's more of a concious energy that created the universe. The theory of Evolution is just a plausiable way of explaning how we came to be. Like Bill said " It's the science of life ".  I don't think creationisim is completely dangerous, but it can be if you close your mind to other possibilties. Overall, I like to keep an open mind. I think it's the best way to deal with contriversial subjects like this. 

Take Care & Enjoy the video




Veronica Mars: The Movie

Hey all,

Do you remember a show on the WB called Veronica Mars? You know, the kick-ass teenage detective? Yeah, well they've made a movie that's coming out sometime this year. Personally, I know it won't be as good as the show, too much time has gone by, but I know they'll make it good enough. Plus, the characters themselves would have to seem more evolved than their teenage counterparts, they're adults now. 

I loved this show as a teenager. When I looked at the character Veronica, I realized how empowered she made me feel. I know, strange, but she doesn't take crap from people and is wicked smart too. Her sassyness is what I loved the most about the character, she always had something witty to say. 

Anyways, they've just released a trailer. 

Enjoy all--


Fifty Shades of Sisterly tension

To any of you who've ever read any of my previous blogs, you all probably know that I hate the Fifty Shades of Grey Trilogy. So, the fact that I am being judged for my opinion by my own sisters should not come as a complete shock to me, but strangely enough, it does.  They glorify this series and sometimes make comments like " I will find my own Christian Grey" or " Oh he is perfect Christian Grey material." 

Yah, I admit, whenver I would hear that coming from either of them, I'd cringe, but I respect their opinions.  So, when I was asked why, I responded in kind and with complete and utter honesty. 

I told them how utterly one unbelieveable the plot in these stories are. How one-dimensional and utterly silly all of the characters are and that's obvious that this was a fanfiction. How this serious glorifies the sexual preversness of men and the the sexual abuse of women. Not to mention the poor writing style and the British slurrs that Anna uses, despite the fact that she's American living in the USA! What, was E.L James to lazy to do the research and change those tiny aspects? Seriously, any good writer would do so. 

I tried to explain that Christian Grey is not a man who you'd really want to be with because he is sexually abusive and down right cruel. I mean come on! In the first book, he threatens to kill her numerous times throughout the story. Seriously, what kind of women would be attracted to that? 

On the other hand, the books series does dive into the darker side of human nature, which is what she was going for I guess. It's just so poorly concieved. I'm not judging anyone who is into BDSM, but seriously, I've even heard some people who are say that this series is utter and complete crap! Anyways, of course my opinon on the matter when in through one ear and out the other. I'm not suprised, but I worry. I worry that they think Christian Grey is the typical guy because in all seriousness, he's not. Christain Grey is a fantasy that no man could ever aspire to be. 

If I were to walk down the street and ever come across him, I'd kick him in the nads and take away his ability to fuck or reproduce.  Also, Anna said " My inner goddess" and " Oh my!" Way too many times for my liking. The fact that she's a virgin and when they do it for the first time she has multiple orgasms is so unrealisitc. My first time, I will admit, I didn't even have one. I was too confused, shell shocked and felt down right icky afterwards to call it " Magical" or " Omg, I just like had thee best sex, evah!"  But whatever, they will believe what they want to. 

Anyways I'm done venting,

Adios readers,


Blackfish, the documentary

I watched this documentary on Netflix called " Blackfish ", which is basically about Orcas that are being used in amusement parks. I never realized in my wildest dreams that the Orac's were suffering from being in such an inclosed place.  ( Heh, shows how much I know)

As a child, I loved seeing them at Sea World. Because I've lived in Ohio all of my life, I've never really traveled to places where I could see oceanic life like Orca's, Dolphins and other Oceanic life in their natural habitat. So, places like aquariams and Sea World was the next best thing for me. 

Now after seeing this documentary, I now think very differently about such places. I for one am appalled by their treatment of these majestic creatures. They don't belong in tanks, they belong in the open ocean! When I have kids I will NEVER take them to Sea World. I'd rather my kids see them in their natural habitat than see them suffering in a fucking tank to perform little tricks to amuse us humans. 

To be honest, I may never go back to a zoo, if I can help it. Sometimes it takes something like a documentary to open a person's mind. I only hope that these poor creatures will be released back into the wild, or at least to a place where they can experience their natural habitat. 


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